Anyway back again, to my old drawing board, a couple annoying things just happened today, I am checking my MSN right now, and then look at my watch, it's 12:33, I still have some time to write on my blog. Ever think jamming an elephant in a phone both? Feels like that most of the time. All left of me was my beautiful dreams... No complain, I Really wish so ^^ One thing that really bugs me is that, my website. You know, for my class project, I have to create one from scratch; imagine, from notepad --talk about old school here, some thinks they can get away with dreamweaver, but my classmates gonna have a bomb when they found out the instructor is at "no mercy" when he talks about cheating. Anyway, I did this "whatever" web page, and alas I've really got into it, it makes me addicted creating pages with notepad, put this image, that sound and a touch of css styling and I have masterpiece in seconds, just as soon as I push the "upload" button on tripod... Voila, I gave birth to a baby website. ^^ Anyway this mornin' while I have a little break from work (Little, to me is about one hour). Instead of hacking the "pervert one" (by pervert I mean the gay teacher that's been hitting on me for the past year or so) Or trying to create chaos by unplugging some paranoia infected teachers from the net, I've decided to be a lil' angel and started to work on my baby homepage. By jolly I was creating more wonders, lightyears ahead of my friends' crummy one paged notepad wonders. Oh yeah, It's simple to just put an (img src=nice-a$$.jpg) and having one full page of nothing... other than lame written all over it. Imagine, while others inventing the wheel, I have a complete turbo boosted sports sedan.And then It hit me, after I finished editing one page, multimedia.html tripod started to give me error messages, just like a worker who has not been paid for two weeks... To make long story short, It kicked me right in the a$$ when I found out my multimedia page was now a "blank."I kept on hitting back back and then I started screamin' "Give me back my multimedia page you @##Wipe!" (censored due to liability issues) But then all I heard was only silence, as my multimedia page went "bye bye..."Wish I could cry, doing all my notepad wonders, especially when I don't have backup is just seemingly annoying. You know what they said? The best things in the world are free? Forget that, "free stuff reaks!" Grampa, gramma, uncle, aunts, even the little geek boy down the street, don't you get free stuff from tripod, it sucks.... You'll be smirking also when you tried to connect to ftp.tripod.com by your favorite software, 99.6 percent of the time tripod refused connection by saying "Your account has been suspended, due to excessive bandwith usage." Hey, at least it was free, imagine if you have to pay to have a beautiful chick on your dream? "@##Wipe!.........."
|| 12:32 PM || Last time I checked my sanity...
What is wrong with you people?
This is what you experienced when you've been working in IT field too long...
- As I was cleaning today, I've managed to stack some of old boxed softwares, to my surprise by an hour later, a box was missing. Somebody apparently just took the software expecting to score some freebie, I was laughing becuz as I remember the box contained Norton Antivirus 2000, boy that person must really put in a good use for that piece of software.
- A teacher came up to me and stated, she cannot work her online program. She said some options were missing, so that she cannot post her work online. Alas, she was working on a minimized windows about 1/3 the size of the monitor...
- One personnel came up to my supervisor and told her that I was sabotaging her work, by not letting her work, reason being she said, I locked the whole computer LAB thus preventing her from working, when my supervisor called me for an explanation, I told her simply that yesterday; there was a power outtage.
- Some people actually brought muffins, cappucino, and devilled eggs when working with computers, add a little touch and she can have a potluck by her own. Don't forget KFC : "Finger lickin' Good!"
- One teacher has actually got upset and called me, stating she cannot find the "My computer" icon to run some programs from cd, when I checked I was not surprised, I told her that in her desktop "My Computer" has been renamed "zajhgda;."
- Another personnel came up today and insist on sending an email, she needs to send an attachment to her supervisor, when I asked her what's her e-mail address, she simply said "My e-mail address is: hotmail.com."
- The alt + F4 pranks still works wonderfully *evil grins* This works perfect on some dudes that thinks he's the hot stuff and kept on jamming the LAB printers almost on a daily basis.
- Some people still thinks that a 486 laptop machine can miraculously access the internet through wireless hotspots.
- Some people actually confused what an apple or a mac is, they still cannot tell that normally mac has a one button mouse, and some people actually move an ergonomic top roller mouse around expecting to move the cursor, and they''ve complained, the mouse doesn't work.
- About 10 people on average daily comes up to me and stated, they've forgotten their user password.
- Linux is not some kind of Asian delicacy!!
- Apparently some people been trying to access my locked workstation using their hotmail e-mail user account.
- Some people actually asked whether I have an extra keyboard that I can spare to take home. Last time I checked the overpriced keyboard started at $2.99 at the local electronics store. Worth less than a gallon of gas.
- Some particular individuals tried to scan on my laser printer, and print on my flatbed scanner. Even trying to send some fax on a regular color printer, now where'd do that dial numbered buttons went AWOL?
- After four years on the site doing maintenance, some people still calls me the "Tech Guy."
- People are still lookin' for the lost treasure ever after: the Internet Explorer Address Bar!
Cheer up, it's another wonderful day @work...
Last Time I checked my msn, still online....
|| 8:01 PM || Last time I checked my sanity...
Back again! Commander!
Seems like ages, I haven't post anything here. O well, due to the website I am working on for my school project, which really takes up my time nowadays, you can always check it out at http://bandicoot58.tripod.com Also I practically drifted away with a few friends during the past weekend. MusicIndo crew was at large like a lose cannon right in the heart of Pasadena.
Honestly that was one of the best fun I have yet so far, this year alone. The atmosphere was really nice along with the calming cool weather, seemingly interchanged with the busy people walking down the streets. We had GrumpiE, rufi3, dj[mamo] and SigmaTech.
Back to work now, it's monday morning
Okae back to the basic it's fun facts
I was thinking about how Indonesians are very simple society, see we don't bother to write complicated words... or anything more than a three words sentences ^^.
So here we are, the reason why instead of long and undesirable space taker, we should rename some songs..
Top Love Songs (Indonesian Version)
Third Eye Blind - Deep Inside of you (Dalem Banget!)
Kelly Clarkson - Since U Been Gone (Pas lo cabut)
Shania Twain - Man! I feel like a Woman (Waria)
Bryan Adams - Everything I do, I do it For You (Capek Dong!)
Britney Spears - I'm not a girl, not yet a Woman (Remaja)
Michael Bolton - Said I love you, but I lied (Tukang Boong)
That's says it all ya'll !!
Now, on to another subject, I was thinking about my old *friend* wondering how he is right now. He used to like this girl half his age, of course her mom and dad got freaked out, and send her somewhere far :P Oom, gimana kabarnya om? masih keliling pake mobil tamiya???
Thats it for now, take good care now!
|| 8:33 AM || Last time I checked my sanity...
Doa untuk kekasih ....
Sepertinya malam ini tak bisa terlelap...
Terlalu banyak yang jawaban yang kucari.
Terlalu gelisah hatiku
Terlalu terburu, oleh keinginan,
Kekasih malam ini aku cuma bisa berdoa...
Semoga indah mimpimu, jauh dari segala kebencian
Semoga bintang-bintang selalu menyinari wajahmu
Dan semoga terjaga harapanmu
Kekasih malam ini aku meminta...
Semoga selalu diberkati jalanmu
Indah nian hari harimu...
Dan melati memintal jemarimu, tanda selalu putih cintaku...
Kekasih tidur lelap
Semoga kau bisa tersenyum lagi
Esok pagi kalau kau membuka lembaran hari....
|| 3:35 AM || Last time I checked my sanity...
Love on "Terms"
Let me pick up a pen, and write these words for you...
Before my coffee ran out...
Before my mind, wondering around again
Thinkin' about you ....
Let me stop one moment, to catch my breath...
It seems like everytime I miss you
You took it away with you...
I'm afraid I might lose it one of these days ...
"Sexy" is, when I kissed you under the night stars...
When I enjoyed your giggles and cuddles
When I smell the lavender on the break of dawn...
and when your naughty eyes, wondered around my tempted mind....
"Love" is, when I hold you closely
Feels like never letting go
and I don't want the seconds to walk past by us....
and your sweet tender lips whispered "care", "promises", and "comfort"
"Devotion" is, when you hold my hands...
At times I grew weary, and grew older
When times are hard and fear comes in mind
and "doubt" are playing tricks on me
You stood still there...
"Trust" is, when you know that I love you
and confident that our love will grow
no matter how far I go,
no matter how long you've waited for me...
For a very special girl
With a very special smile...
And a very special heart
And a very beautiful heart...
|| 12:13 AM || Last time I checked my sanity...
It's a funny world, isn't it?
Sunday, 10:18 pm.
Two broken hearts,
one very hurt person,
And still counting ....
This is the way of the world, sometimes warm, sometimes funny... But often cold and lonely.
This is a though that should go out to the world itself..
Im shouting let me free, let me free
But again I hope you could smile
There's always a chance worth taking
either love, or hate
Just smile and wipe those tears away...
And still dangling
I hope you still smile when you stand beside the ocean
Promise me that you would be allright....
This is the way of the world, and I tell you this
There's always love to find, affection to deliver
There's always memories to be made
And that human heart is always the key to unlock life's mistery...
For those lonely, broken hearted and dying spirits...
Try to love, affect, and give yourself some hope
For those betrayed, and felt abandoned
Try to append, and give the world a big smile....
All I know is that you've made it this far...
You need to give yourself a hand,
Give yourself some time....
This is the way of the world
For a few special friends... stay strong !
|| 10:18 PM || Last time I checked my sanity...
A bit of thought, a bit of suggestion
Supposed not much that I can say today, just would like to share few comments and concerns.
It is always a beautiful feeling, to love and care about someone.. especially when that someone is dear and very close to you. Seems like no matter what the person do, or say really just brightens our little heart and warm our small day.
As I was watching again, the clock hits twelve the minutes past three.
My mind lingers to our conversation, not long ago, we were talking (me and a close friend) about how love has changed us, sometimes for the better, and sometimes for the worse...
And I thought that she had just found a new hope, someone to share her wonderful memoirs with... Because she has always been very easygoing and fully spirited.
But again, love is not about egoism, love is not love when you have to "have" that person under your disposal. Love is not love when you decide what is best for the person you love, especially regarding his/ her happiness, regarding his / her choice of whom this person is in love with, or want to spend the rest of their life with. Love is to love, "To love someone does not means that you have to have that someone." (I told her about this over and over..)
There's no point in loving if you obsessing the person you're in love with.. Thats why it is called obsession. Love is to give out the best that we have, and expect nothing in return, because that is what love supposed to be, no return whatsoever.
I also spoke with another friend last night, who claims that I became such an arrogant person after a while because I haven't called her in a while. I told her my reasons, I don't really like to invest too much time with girls in a relationship (having a boyfriend)
Still the claim remains that she said, I just can't handle the truth, that I won't let jealousy go. In my defense, wasn't you the one who called me, and I was the one walking away in the beginning from this. But still I am the big bad wolf that hurt so many innocents piglets.
Anyway, girl one and girl two, let's stop this nonsense....
There isn't much that I can offer...
Why do you choose love that is forbidden ?
Why can't you just love without expecting anything in return?
If you can't love, then you should get to know love.
Let's stop this crime, you're not doing anybody a favor
Other than letting yourself deeper in the dark
And jealousy, they've said, caused humans to suffer in anger
And anger, is the gate to eternal suffering
Why hate, why jealous? why me?
Just let it go,
If you can't love, then don't have..
Because if you love to "have"
Why do you have something you don't love?
RayKun, Condemmed... ever after
|| 3:07 PM || Last time I checked my sanity...
I believe I need my sanity back ...
After a long hours
MSN Status : still on, at least from last night. Last I checked it was 8:02 pm
And then I gazed left and right as I was enjoying my morning coffee.
I realized I missed my old days.
Where have all the fun gone?
And I've just realized I lost something precious again, a fallen memory...
Through the eyes of a believer, I've seen in coming..
There will be the day that I will be able to find the lost hope back.
Through the eyes of a lover I've seen changes.
Things are not the same, but it is all for the better isn't it ?
Through the eyes of the condemmed, I learned that mistakes are not easily erased
And that sometimes you don't say or do what you meant.
Through the eyes of my parents I have seen miracles
Done by just doing the simplest things in life...
Through the eyes of a leader, I have felt compassion, frustration, and anger
That's why a great leader is also a willing servant...
Through the eyes of a servant, I have understand the mission carried by the chosens'
That's why with great powers, comes great responsabilities.
But all I felt now is just empty, I guess because of all the fallen memories.
I wish an angel would just come and take me away.
Take me to the arms of grace, under the watch of the morning light.
I wish for a star, but still they do not respond....
Somehow there's a little enjoyment left in this cup of coffee...
And then I wonder, where do all these thoughs coming from ?
Vince has left to work, back to the real life....
|| 9:17 AM || Last time I checked my sanity...
Time for a change ? (or is it the "time" itself has changed?)
Finally, it has come to this... Guess what? I'm gonna start writing on my blog.
Meaning what? I'm gonna start writing, writing writing.....
For those of you that doesn't like bad words or jokes, or just simply thinks that whatever I write is none in your interest... then go somewhere else... Freedom is about to write what you want, what you think, and what inspires you the most, and that's it!
Slave Day in 2005
Imagine this, have you ever been in a situation where ppl just being nice to you, just because they wanted something? I guess today is really my day... Let's called it my slave days.
Today, out of nowhere ppl would just storming me! Some ppl that I don't even know comes up to me and started to act nice, just because they wanted something from me, some favor, some itty little bitty stuff.
Anyway...
They've said that the world is computerized nowadays, and I think the answer is no!
If truly the world is computerized then I would like to suggest some improvement.
- Using ctrl + f I should be able to find my missing set of keys in the morning.
- Using ctrl + z I should be able to "undo" my mistakes when I cheat on my wife.
- Using ctrl + u I want to tell my girlfriend to stop buying expensive clothing, and she'll remembers it because ctrl + u will automatically underlined the words that I've said.
- Using F5 in the morning will be able to "refresh" and zap me ready to work!
- How about F1 button before you get married with your fiancee?
- If you see a nice lookin' girl you can immediately push ctrl + c to copy the pickup lines and then press ctrl + v to paste it and see if any of them work!
- Where is the reset button when you get fired from sleeping at work?
- Confused picking between 2 two or more girls ? ctrl + a should handle the trick (Btw ctrl + a, selects "all")
- Wondering why you're reading this crappy blog? then press ctrl + F4
and the worst is yet to come...
Imagine ppl that doesn't even know your name? Suddenly being nice to you, being fake? And all of a sudden, just because they're being nice to you, they expect you to be nice and be their slave for the day... These are the ppl you don't know, the ppl who talks behind your back... and feeds upon your misery and misfortunes. Anyway, it is the truth that human tends to take things for granted, our mom, dad, families... we tend to forget, what they did, what they sacrificed and then when we want them just for their service... we started to be Fake and why is that? We became creatures of convenience... just because we wanted our brothers and sisters to do things for us, while we don't even remember their name, let alone do the same thing for them...
|| 10:06 AM || Last time I checked my sanity...
Today, I miss you....
Just wanted to let you know... that I would give my soul for you... and the simplest things like "I love you," means so much for me, and that everytime you said you miss me... These words always remind me of how sweet you are...
[dedicated to my dear and beloved, Crystal`]
|| 10:22 PM || Last time I checked my sanity...
